today, e can of worms was opened.

snap. just like that.

but there's so many versions to the story behind that can of worms that i don't know what to believe in anymore.

but what irks me the most... what hurts me the most is that it feels almost like being backstabbed. yes. that's how it feels like.

it isn't about what they decided to do, although i do not agree with what they chose to do. its not even about the ethical issues behind that decision.

its about the fact that we were told that it would be fair. or so i thought. i dont know if i can go as far as to call it a lie, but thats damn sure what it feels like.

its about the fact that i treat everybody as friends. truthfully. and yet what came back wasn't the reciprocal.

maybe i'm naive. when people asked me for help, i gave. i truly believe that i did, even if i was irritated. but i did. i treated everybody as friends.

so now i dont know how i will act or behave. i've said many times today "how to trust anymore? how do you want me to treat you?" but at the end of the day, i will be ok. my conscience is clear.

and people tell me to forgive and forget.

so, friends? yes.

but things will probably never be the same again.

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it's 7:27 AM now