dunch noe y. but just had dis urge to do a little soul-searching & reflect on wad has happened thus far... so here goes.

Studies
dis is definitely one of e main things on my mind right now, with e exams lurking just around the corner. i cant say dat dis sem i'm doing damn well, but its surely a far cry better than last sem. at least i can safely say dat i've put in more effort than last sem. hmm... things r unpredictable... i may just fall short during the exams but wth la rite? at least e blood n sweat had been shed. but of cos there r a couple of regrets... for not working hard enuff there n then. for not studying hard enuff for my EE test cos i was bz doing vdae present. lol... stuff like dat which if given the choice, i'd still do dem all over again. so yeh... nothing much to really complain abt.

Friends
i m VERY VERY grateful to e friends hu have stuck by me when it mattered. my pals in NUS, bert, mang, fiq & brother. rlly cannot ask for aniting more. even tho there may still be differences btwn us, but its been... great. to just know dat we've got one another's back. n motivating each other to study. all the jokes cracked. having fun @ ping-pong/jamming. it has been 1 hella a sem, but i doubt i could have pulled thru it without dis bunch of friends. n then again, theres e ppl hu have given me support in one way or another... ppl like jelena, yunxin, kim, grace, tsz shan, weixiong etc etc etc. the list seems a little random, but i just felt dat everybody and anybody deserves a place on the list. so yeh... probably most ppl ba. n of cos 1 other person will be jasmine. for making life a little more colourful, a little more meaningful. n for just being in my life. basically for everything. but i'm oso v sorry, for all the times when i may have upset her in any way. =(

Hall
as each day passes, my time remaining in Kent Ridge Hall slowly crawls away. well, as of now, i dun rlly feel much sadness to leave KR. hmm ppl may now c me as a phantom... cos dis sem i rlly distanced myself from the hall... well cos i tot it wouldnt be nice, for myself & for ppl in the hall... if i rlly do get too emotionally attached to the hall. but despite all dat, i'm still grateful & thankful... cos the hall has given me the opportunity to: (1) get closer to ALOT of ppl... i mean old friends. ppl like mel, weixiong, colin, mingfeng. (2) spend more time with jelena mei. i haven been a good kor. n i sure hope i've made up a bit for lost time during this sem. esp when she's leaving for SEP next sem. (3) getting to noe true friends. there r ppl in hall hu r so fake. but i'm glad dat i've known ppl whom i'll still gladly stop along corridors to chat with them. ppl like mala, van, andi etc. well... not alot actually. (4) picking up takraw. i dono if i'll ever get the chance to play again, but i must say dat i've rlly fallen in love with the sport. n its rlly a big regret of mine, dat i can no longer play this sport.

Myself
through the past few weeks, i've seen myself become increasingly paranoid n somewhat selfish. n i was once liddat not too long ago. i've forgotten how to give happiness to ppl... i've forgotten to care for other ppl. i put my own happiness before others'. n sometime ago i tried hard to change myself. with a significant level of success... i could feel the difference. i'm sure many others could too. but somehow i'm slowing forgetting all these things. n so now i'll try my best to work towards being a better person, a better man AGAIN. n hopefully this time it will be for good. n so sorry to anybody whom i may have hurt/upset/angered. my deepest apologies. i will strive to make everyone happy. i swear.

okok. super long entry. time to stop n go to slp.

haha. found e perfect thing @ bras basah today. great. =)

oh. n happy 24th bdae to my brother. lol.

it's 9:23 AM now