任我放纵的小世界

somebody just kill me. the past wk has been absolutely torturous. but thank goodness its coming to an end alr. i hope. lol...

had problems sleeping last nite. made worse by the headache i was having. flipped n turned in bed from 1am to 230am & i was in such a bad mood... n was pretty angry over some rlly stupid things. n i came back online, found yunxin & she made dis brilliant comment "dun tink negative, or else all the negative thots will start piling up." woah! aint dat so true?

aniwae i couldnt slp n so i playyed game till around 4+am. oops.

fuck. my wound has officially reopened. argh. with all e pus. double argh.

almost dere! almost dere! 1 more day!

to me & myself: dun tink negative. there's no end to it.

it's 11:47 PM now

Sunday, February 26, 2006

i woke up at 8am, hoping to tidy up, eat breakfast, collect my laundry, do abit of physics, before settling down to watch e live webcast for maths at 9am. so here i m, only to realise dat theres no live webcast? wtf! since when did they stop having live webcast?? dat means i'll hafta use 1hr to watch e webcast ltr in the day. i shud haf just gone for e lecture or wake up ltr lo. waste my time.

n ystd on my way back to hall (lugging my bag & laptop)... @ harbourfront station... i couldnt help but swear at e mrt ppl. ok i'm just being mean & stuff. cos e escalator from the mrt itself to the harbourfront was not working. guess under maintainance or sth. n normally under dis kinda situation, they'd reverse the one dat's meant for ppl to come down rite... so dat ppl can use the escalator to climb up. but amazingly... they didnt! so ppl had to climb UP the stairs, while ppl coming down just happily took the escalator. ok i'm being a bastard... but it doesnt help dat my leg's injured n i'm carrying so many things la! WTF???

aniwae thanks to everybody hu's expressed concern over my stupid leg. lol... its on e way to recovery... but it hurts when its drying up, esp after bathing. or when trying to move it after being in a position for too long. like ystd... almost died when trying to get out of e seat after watching [Final Destination 3]. yep... so thanks to ppl like wanyi, kim, mel, ruai, grace, azrul... oh n i realise from e fotos i posted... u can c e scar left behind from the injury in the other pic! oops. damn gross...

& of cos jele mei. =) it was nice talkin to u ystd. just sit dere n do nth n just talk rubbish. get away from work for once. lol. thanks mei!

okok. gg to grab another hr of slp. =p pig laahhh.

it's 5:04 PM now

Friday, February 24, 2006

sorry grace. didnt manage to take care of myself... cos... i'm injured again! lol. to tink i actually find dis funny. well its actually just another abrasion... thank goodness not some sprain, fracture or dislocation. n tink my lips r pretty bad cos ppl can actually c dat its swollen. sigh.

but now it hurts when i try to bend my leg la. growls. esp when climbing up/down stairs. wth.

check dis 2 fotos out ya. e 1st one is e one dat i just picked up. e 2nd one is e injury i got last yr from IBG. similar lor! hahah...

it's 11:07 PM now

was reading thru my past entries from my previous blog... n was shocked to realise some cute stuff like i've been calling wanyie my idol since april last yr. has it rlly been dat long?

went to play abit of takraw just now... n i mistimed a header n in the end e ball hit me in e face. as a result i've got a cut lip, some bleeding (stopped alr) & a slightly swollen lip. sigh... tml's e KR open handball comp. will def hafta play cos of e lack of ppl playing in my position. hopefully no injury will be sustained.

i was on e verge of going mad just now. v disappointed with myself n how i've conducted myself recently. super ashamed of myself. n when i was lookin for some1 to talk to... was amazed by how few ppl i could approach. but rlly thanks to yunxin for lending a listening ear & all e valuable advice. thanks alot. =)

FOOTNOTE:
to sister: PLS TAKE CARE! find me if aniting k?
to jasmine: gd luck for ur remaining pprs. 1 more wk. jiayou~
to yunxin: erm. thanks again?
to gloria: wah lau. i bad mood still ask me do survey. just kiddin~
to all e ppl out dere hu haf finished their exams(eg. kim, wanyi, yvonne): congrats! go haf fun!

it's 7:49 AM now

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

~~damn~~

*deleted*

it's 10:57 AM now

short & sweet.

~~feeling like shit.~~
on panadol.

it's 4:47 AM now

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

*just finished watching maths webcast* n my idiotic sister is whacking me with a cushion. i shall slaughter her after i finish updating. haha!

kinda stoned thru my day today... woke up late. had late lunch. went to play a bit of bball. went to meet jas for dinner n den here i m again, watching maths webcast. hmm it was pretty dumb playing bball on my own cos it was kinda impromptu but oh well.. i'm just trying to exercise as well as to get a tan at e same time.

speaking of tan... i wanna get dark! cos being white is pretty erxin. being dark makes a person look sporty. n of cos... well some1 likes ppl being dark wad. diaos.

was flipping thru dis book dat my mum bought (with consensus from my sister)... its like a short story book, just dat its all drawings... like Calvin n Hobbes.. haha. but its chinese de. n e comics r supposedly drawn by a korean. aniwae e book is abt love n stuff n i rlly like dis 2 lines which managed to catch my eye... e 1st was on the cover, while e 2nd one was somewhere in e book...

"像今天一样温暖的时刻，想要听见你的声音，想要对你说：[我喜欢你~]"
"如果真的珍惜那个人，就不要忘记，要帮他守护最重视的东西"

i dono how to cross e road. cos u nv bring me across! =p

it's 8:47 AM now

Monday, February 20, 2006

yes its been awhile. i noe. hmm currently its e mid-term break now... so feeling pretty much at ease with everything. i alr noe how much i got for my maths n programming mid-term tests... n i must say dat i'm v satisfied with e scores, altho i still tink dat i could haf done bttr for programming, if i had been more careful. but still gd enuff la.

i hate e hot weather. causes pimple outbreak... sickening. speaking of e weather, i'm kinda sunburnt... not from sentosa, not from sports or even aniting near. i got burnt... while standing under the freaking hot sun waiting for the release of results for Superband. diaos... screw e sun.

today was our 2nd jamming session, if u even consider e previous one as the 1st. but we managed to nail Take A Look Around by Limp Bizkit... which is the Mission Impossible theme song. yep so if u all wan can go check out e song... its pretty cool ya. n of cos we're in e midst of exploring other songs n fine-tuning dis song as well.

hmm have u ever been so obsessed over something? dat u tink abt it every min of the day... dream abt it when u slp. n it fills ur mind from the very moment which u wake up?

well i have. n it feels so magical & awe-inspiring.

cos its not something. but someone.

it's 7:32 AM now

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

double-yellow-red-rose

it's 4:01 PM now

cake~

it's 3:58 PM now

i love dis gift. for a million reasons.

it's 3:56 PM now

Happy Valentines'!

yes yes... i noe its 7hrs52mins since vdae has gone by, but so wad? aniwae happy bdae to Jacinta & out to my broder Azrul... who i conveniently forgot his bdae AGAIN. freaking ashamed of myself.

this wk has been super long n tiring... dono if its cos of vdae or the upcoming tests. in either way it has left me super tired, drained, exhausted, lethargic & whatever-nots u have. i even nearly fell asleep while driving along ECP last nite. oops...

tinking abt wad zhiwei said: dat sometimes efforts put in do not generate desired results. n how dat feeling sux. fast forward a few weeks back, sharon commenting dat nothing in dis world can ever be fair. all dat's true... be it to studies, family, friendships and especially relationships.

but guess wad? i dun rlly care. as long as i can bring a smile to the faces of these ppl i'm more or less satisfied. so yep. i dun care.

then again... i'm rlly a bit tired le.

Happy Vdae.

it's 3:52 PM now

Monday, February 13, 2006

currently studying in central library. its weird. theres no chiobus here today, ok mayb aiyun & siawlei since i bumped into them.

studying makes me depressed. watching webcast makes it worse. in short, i just hate studying.

n suddenly i thot abt sth & dis goes out to all my frens: if i were to die today, wad would u do/feel? will there be plenty of tears, plenty of sympathies & most imptly, plenty of regrets? if u were to die today, wad would i do/feel? tink abt it & if u do bother, leave me a tag. lol.

aniwae dat day i came across the diary dat me & wanxuan used to share... n it was pretty nice reading thru it again. all e exchanges of e diary... even tho it dates back to 2001! haha... so long ago le. but ya it was still some... erm... nice memories?

speaking of which... good luck to zhiwei the man. hopefully everything goes well tonight. jiayou.

i hate school.

If i were to die today...

it's 2:58 AM now

Sunday, February 12, 2006

i've got confessions to make! but to who? n some things r better left unspoken.

told zhiwei sth just now. sigh. cant stop thinkin abt it. it's been bugging me for... a week.

hoping my fone will ring now. anybody, sms? =(

it's 6:54 AM now

Saturday, February 11, 2006

new skin, which i tink jasmine will like. if u wan i'll give u dis skin k? =)

EE test wasnt dat bad, considering how much i studied for it. but yeh i noe i prob wun score but wth. i dun rlly care alr. 3 more tests this upcoming week... n dat sux. no vdae for me but... oh well. =) ystd was gr8, altho did nth much.

btw i've stopped my drumset lessons temporarily. as much as i'm interested to carry on learning, it is qt a lot of money invovled... 4lessons for $120, which is already the discounted price. so... ya i'm not sure if i wan to carry on. but if i dun then e price dat merbra has to pay will have to go up again. sigh!

i'm sorry i gave u such a fright last night... no words can express my apologies...

swear nv to do it again...

& i love the present!

it's 9:57 PM now

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

a random post...

finished my tutorials alr. at least for those needed for tml... so after dis it'll b back to making e present. yep yep... carn wait for it to be finished! =)

had dinner with jelena mei just now... her hand is still in a... hmm can i call it a cast? it supports the hand. i tink shes doing much bttr alr... but it still seems pretty serious. hai. wad haf i been doing as a kor? haven been paying enuff attn to her! hope she gets well real soon lor... k? take care mei...

hmm... dat reminds me of jasmine's hand. wonder how issit... dun scratch already ok!

jasmine says i dono how to entertain her... hai. i admit la. i'm just a v dull boy/puppy/chicken/pig/monkey. i'll try to improve!!

=) back to e present.

it's 7:08 AM now

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

i'm havin qt a bit of difficulty typing this entry... i tink i've injured some nerve in my right hand when playin handball just now? i dono. but seems like my fingers r not exactly responsive. i mean they still move n stuff but when i try to exert more strength it seems pretty impossible. shit man. hope it goes away soon. pls...

we just lost e handballs finals to raffles hall. n yes the feeling of losing sux, even when u're not playing. n it sux even more cos everything just seemed to go against us. rahhhh. forget it. but dat marks e end of my handball career in kr. hmm mayb for life oso? -shrugs-

rlly random entry.

i mean everything i say.

i miss u.

saturday. saturday. saturday!!

it's 7:48 AM now

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Walk By Me

Walk with me, the path of life,
to explore every bend of the road.
Enjoy with me the beauty of life,
along its wonderful way.

Find comfort with me, in each other's arms,
when grief crosses our path.
Find strength with me, in each other's strength,
when despair lies in wait.

Laugh with me, a single true laugh,
to enlighten another's distress.
Cry with me, a single true tear,
to understand true happiness.

Cherish with me, the wonders of life,
as they need to be preserved.
Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,
of what is yet to be.

Find peace with me, in each other's souls,
when the world has gone insane.
Find love with me, in each other's hearts,
until this life has been fulfilled.

And when the path comes to an end,
I hope we can say from within:
We've known the beauty of true love,
our love came from within.

it's 10:12 AM now

Saturday, February 04, 2006

hmmm where do i start? it was e first of many 21st bdae parties to come for dis yr. but wth. happy bdae merbra. hope u had a great time at ur party ystd... if only u didnt hafta drink so much, got drunk so fast & puked so much. HAHAHA. u didnt even make it to countdown for ur bdae. but thankfully u've got a great buncha frens who stayed late to look after u, which of cos includes ME, yanjie, yongnan & zhiwei who stayed over. but if u wanna call us gd frens... hmm tink again. rem wad we did to u last night? lol!... i wan e fotos!

e week has gone past again... n yet another wk of school beckons. omfg lah. all of a sudden i'm dreading school so much again... just like last sem! n i'm not doing my work again. shit man. cant carry on like dat... mid-term papers coming up nxt & nxt nxt wk. must work harder. *nods*

side-track.

sometimes things dat i dun like happen. but i've got no right, let alone power to change it. ever felt dis way before? wadeva. shall just shut my fuckin mouth.

i feel like: (1) gg to sentosa (2) getting a tan (3) playing bball (4) go jamming (5) going out. anything but the stupid physics tut dats in front of me now.

sigh.

it's 11:28 PM now

Friday, February 03, 2006

cny came & went, just like dat *snaps fingers* & yep my angpows are still lying there on my table. i dun open them till e entire 15days of cny are over u c. nth much rlly happened this yr tho, wasnt rlly in e visiting mood... altho i must say dat i am pretty saddened by how my granduncle's dog seem so tired & weak dis yr. it didnt even come out to play with us, but just laid there & rest for the whole day. WEY. i hear u all saying dat its cos of me. wth lah. its old ok. =p

ystd witnessed the end of the opening for HuaYi Festival *pics will b up soon*. me & marcus had some problems with our pants, which were goddamn hard to put on. thankfully it managed to stay on for e whole perf, altho i thot i felt it threatening to drop ever since the start of the 2nd song. HAHAHA. the performance itself was not rlly up to my expectations, but oh well... given the no of practice we had, it was a credible perf... so everybody can give urself a pat on the back. well done! esp clarice! you go girl! =)

so many bdaes this month. i nv knew i had so many february friends!! i'm gonna b broke for 3 consec yrs... last yr, this yr & nxt yr. so many 21yr-olds-to-be cannnnnnnn?? diaos.

hmm... if i say... i'm not doing my work now & even contemplating gg out to play bball... i tink jasmine will kill me. okok back to work.

hurhur.

it's 6:39 PM now