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name: Yuwei
nick: Fishtail, Phil, Puppy
school: NUS, engine
birthday: 29 Sept 1984
Horoscope: Libra

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Friday, September 30, 2005

tick tock tick tock. in e blink of an eye my bdae's over alr. yep... officially 21yrs old. free alr? mayb lo. at least can do alot more stuff. wan to watch R21 movie? can. wan to get married can just go ROM without parents consent.

but it didnt rlly feel like my bdae ystd. dono y oso. just dat e mood wasnt dere. mayb cos i worked thru e entire night before dat rushing my SS essay. kns... so i couldnt focus myself the whole of ystd. argh...

STILL... i would like to express my thanks to each & every single one of u out dere... hu bothered to wish me happy bdae... cos dat certainly added a smile to my face! in no specific order... jasmine (xiaomao), my sis (pighead), sharon, tsz shan, ruyi (both GP &VJ), wanyie (idol), yunxin (lazy pig), weisheng (ah kok char kway teow), zhiwei (lao pei chicken rice), merbra (ah soon hokkien mee), kim, wanyi, xuebao, yanting (sister), mingxuan (sis), jelena (mei), wangui, weilin, jacinta, yiwen, gloria (gorilla), grace, joanna, huimin, mel (DAMNNNNN GOOD), yvonne (chiobu), clarice, pok (xiaotu), lynette, marcus (handsome), yanjie (pork chop), huiying (yandao), ernest (ah neh), weilun (guru), wah wei (bahbei) n sining (jiejie)... n presents from my aunt & cousins, yanyi, eugene, kewei & zhengyi. thanks alot! =)

but when u're rushing ur essay in the unholy wee hrs of the morning... & some1 appears at ur doorstep, with breakfast in her hand... it melts ur heart ya? so a big big big thanks to my greatest idol EVER... wanyie! =) thanks so much. but i tink i kinda spoilt the surprise cos i was supposed to be sleeping? hee. but ya i still appreciate it vvvvvv much. ahaha. loved e orange juice n muffin. thanks idol. u're e best. no kidding. from e bottom of my tiny, little, puny heart.

tml's my bdae celeb alr. still in the midst of preparation. hope everything goes well. i mean EVERYTHING. *blink blink* i've got no programmes lined up tml. shit. i just hope everyone will have a good time. but how to rite? when i've got no programmes? haha. diaoz.

n now... i've got 1 less storage space for sms in my fone.

gotta keep dat sms till my bdae nxt yr. =)

it's 7:58 PM now

Monday, September 26, 2005

so that was it. end of my 3 mid-term tests. not rlly feeling much abt it tho. no jubliant feeling... nor any unhappiness. ok mayb some disappointment, but dats abt it. n so in the past 4 days, i've felt hopeless 3 times... dats qt an amazing frequency. today's test was... hmm. half good half bad? e first few qns were ez & i breezed thru them. however, i got stuck half-way thru e paper n things nv rlly got better from there onwards. pass? mayb... with a tinge of luck. but i doubt it will happen. so... 3 fail for 3 tests? its a little horrible. kinda reminds me of my JC1 history. hopefully i'll be able to wake up my idea after this ordeal... & start working harder.

now staring into space & wondering wad to do now. actually got stuff to do lo. its just dat i dun wan to do. hahaha... siao leh. how to improve like dat? =P dun feel like doing anything now. waiting for weisheng to come up. for wad i oso dono. ltr ask him... den we'll be gg to west coast macs for supper with melissa... ahaha our reward for helping her with e tin today.

melissa is damn cute. haha... all e stupid things dat she do & her weird way of saying "DAAMNN cool" & of cos... "fifty-five!" haha. she has dis unique sense of humour. or mayb shes e humour. kinda reminds me of wanyie... dun need to do anything oso damn entertaining. heehee. eh idol. where have u gone to? must meet up soon leh! weekly lunch!! actually... dono y kinda reminded of siwei too. haha. wth.

i tink e depression lingering in e atmosphere nowadays gettin a little to me. hurhur. must shake it off. it makes me hu si luan siang la. kns one...

hmm i wan to change blogskin le. & upload a background music... any suggestions on where i can find mp3s to use? heehee.

it's 10:53 AM now

Saturday, September 24, 2005

i forgot to include dis in e previous entry. i heard dis song on my laptop & tot it was v appropriate for a fren of mine. u noe hu u r. listen to dis song. n after u do dat, buckle ur seatbelt. when i'm outta dis depression mood too, we'll gather Ah Kok Char Kway Teow (weisheng), Ah Soon Hokkien Mee (merbra) & go for e ride of our lives. hang on.

李圣杰--<远走高飞>

爱你错了吗
为什么会受到这么多惩罚
他们说的话像针往心里扎
我心中的怕
不知该怎么做才可以放下
只不过想好好的爱一次啊

带我远走高飞
不去理会
这一个蜚短流长的世界布满虚伪
是你让我选择沉醉
繁星守侯月不能睡
只因为爱上了夜的黑
带我远走高飞
一起去追
有一个叫做幸福的世界没有泪水
我已经感觉到疲累
只想在你怀抱入睡
不在乎别人眼中是非

重新再出发
能不能让这天地不再吵杂
我的心里面安静得不像话
故事的真假
没有多余的力气去分辨他
只不过想好好的爱一次啊

it's 12:55 AM now

well oh well. i guess i'm not destined to escape e claws of depression as well. diaos. no la i dun tink its depression. mayb just mood swing ba? it hasnt been a good day la, to put it simply. all e disappointments dat i've endured today... takes a big part of my morale away.

physics mid-term quiz. 1st test of uni. results... probabaly FAIL. hmm should b almost cfm fail. it was so freaking complicated. totally unlike e past yr papers dat i tried. i mean cummon la. where got... arnd 7-8qns unanswered when they announce "you have 10mins left". furthermore the remaining half of the qns... some of them is anyhow whack one. plus all e mistakes dat i'm bound to make. sure fail de la.

failure is 1 thing. but what rlly amazed me was my own bochup-ness when i knew i wasnt gg to do the qns. qn 1... dono. nvm do qn 2. dono oso. nvm qn 3. n when i realised dat i couldnt do most of e qns... i actually didnt feel anything. n guess wad? i still dun care. i noe dis is a fucked up attitude & i need to get rid of it. we shall c. mayb i can find consolation in e fact dat my prediction was correct. most ppl found e paper screwed up. so i'm not e only 1 hu will do badly. but wth la. finding excuses for myself.

weisheng's gone for a ride alone. bo jio. we had a good chat ystd (or issit today?)... abt friends n stuff. n of cos e usual crap dat we come up with. n all of a sudden... i miss my friends too. of cos i do my minute-ly missing of jasmine. i miss my gd frens zhiwei, merbra, wanyie, yunxin, grace, tsz shan... miss GP. miss my buddy azrul. miss jelena mei. miss ppl i haven seen in donkey yrs. sharon, marcus etc. dis is damn gay. n mad too. but hu cares? i DO miss dem.

if given time, i wan to meet up with all of them. sharon owes me a treat. i'll make sure i claim it. sun bian can catch up with her. btw do i owe any1 treats? hmmm hope ltr yunxin can drop by. den at least got some company tonight. argh.

tml got statistics test. i'll prob die for dat one as well.

someone pull me outta dis depression.

it's 12:47 AM now

Friday, September 23, 2005

theres sth wrong with my left middle finger. i'm startin to understand y its taking so long to heal, despite me gg to e sinseh & rubbing those medical oilment on it. cos i tink e prob lies with e bones. on e left hand side of the 2nd joint of e finger, theres a lump. n when i touch it, i was so shocked dat it was not becos my finger was still swollen. it felt like e bone. wad does dat mean? my finger bone shifted position? or wad? kinda freaked out la. need to go c doc abt it lo. mayb need x-ray? -shrugs-

topic of e week. my Lim Lao Bu Kway Chup store. it was inspired by weisheng's Ah Kok Char Kway Teow & Lim Pei Chicken Rice. n now it has become qt established i must say. whenever weisheng says sth stupid, he'll kana 1 times big bowl of LLBKC. haha. n oh ya. wanyi's gonna b my helper. she aint got ani choice. hahaha. theres even a shift roster in place. mon-fri. weekends off. anybody else interested? we do walk-in interviews. =)

hmm ok serious stuff. i'm amazed by how much someone can be missed. despite e fact dat time was spent together ystd, n u're gonna meet up tml, u still cannot help but just miss dat person. cos he/she's special. its ppl like dis... whose name u'll highlight in a different colour + bold + italics on ur blog. cos they mean sth to u.

admist all the unhappy things dat r going on around me, i'm glad dat i'm still able to find joy & happiness... just becos of a simple fact dat sometime in my life... i met her.

n ya. wad she means to me is beyond words.

yes jasmine. u noe dat person is u. =)

it's 2:48 AM now

Tuesday, September 20, 2005


oei. kwa simi. hahaha.

okok! i've got a few confessions n a few announcements to make.

CONFESSIONS
1. i sneezed ystd. =)
2. i hope u sneezed too.
3. i'm still wondering hu to invite for my bdae celeb!
4. i'm dead broke.
5. i hope my bdae celeb wun make my parents broke as well.
6. I HATE STUDYING (confirm, double-confirmed, guaranteed, chop)
7. i'm gonna fail mid-term! =

ANNOUNCEMENTS
For my bdae celeb, i'm gonna lay down a few ground rules. muahahaha. -nudges kim & wanyi-
1. no alcoholic drinks will b provided (unless u bring! <- highly recommended)
2. all gifts shall be of min $50 value. pax. if u're sharing with some1, then 10% discount. $90 will do.
3. there will b no door gifts.
4. there will b no yandaos... xcept for me & prob my dad.
5. there will b no chiobus... eh wait. there'll b plenty of chiobus. but no tryin to hitch them or u'll b expelled.

reading idol's blog can seriously brighten up ur day. deres sth special abt the way she blogs (or issit her?) n it simply puts a smile on ur face whenever u read thru her entries. but HEY! she's my idol alr. taken. TOO LATE. shoo. go find ur own idol.
-if u dono hu she is... too bad! u're missing out on 1 of e best bloggers arnd *smirk*-

n to all u peeps hu drop by, read, n then just walk away... Oei! tag la! wth. hahaha. must tag la!

it's 12:28 PM now

Saturday, September 17, 2005

i shall officially declare dat i've sprained my left middle finger. argh... sucks la. dat means dat both my middle fingers are sprained now. yep BOTH. n my left index finger oso injured. wth rite??!! argh.

oh ya. my "project"'s 1st draft is finally done! plenty of touching up to do la... but nonetheless... million thanks to mingfeng, eugene, jelena... n of cos i shall thank colin in advance here. my other accomplices... i shall not expose their names here, in case it becomes too obvious. hahahaha. but its gonna b fun! its kinda xiong... but it'll be worthwhile. for me at least la. i'll prob need to treat dem after everything. =)

bah... wey jasmine. ur name appear on my blog liao hor... in ur fav colour summore... make sure u study hard huh... =) jiayous! haha...

it's 12:33 PM now

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

do u believe in all dat nonsense abt when u sneeze, its prob bcos some1 is missing you?

well if u dont, too bad.

cos i do. =)

so... at dis v current moment... *drum rolls* nobody is missing me. as a matter of fact, not for the past few days either... haha!

as such, since sneezing=being missed, dividing throughout by sin(2x) will give u... nah bullshit.

e conclusion is dat everybody should feel loved & happy when u sneeze cos at dat magical moment, someone out there is thinking abt u.

n dats probably y i predict...

you must be sneezing like mad now. =P

oh yeh. <The Longest Yard>'s nice & real funny! go catch it!

it's 11:03 AM now

Monday, September 12, 2005

this past wk has been highly... controvesial? is dat e correct word to use? hahaha. losta farni things happened... esp today. so do not change channels yet!

Interesting fact 1
Date: Last sunday
Time: Post dinner
Location: Outside Tampines Swensens
Wanyie: "actually you're quite metrosexual."
Me: "??!!"
Mer: "ya. actually abit."
-a whole debate abt metrosexuality & me being metrosexual continues-

Interesting fact 2
Date: Last Thursday
Time: Afternoon
Location: VJC Chinese Orchestra practice rm
Weisheng was carrying 2 drums with 1 of it mounted on its stand.
Me: "你拿鼓啦。 架给我。"
Weisheng: "你很浪漫。"
Me: -stunned, then speechless-

the other interesting facts... tink u all can read abt them from other ppl's blog. cos those stories r rlly long la. but if any of you wanna hear abt it can alwaes approach me. i'll tell u e grandfather n grandmother stories. haha... but i thought abt it ystd... actually theres nth wrong with mentally unsound ppl la. in fact we should be more sympathetic towards them... right? diaos. other than dat irritating idiot dat shouted "Oei" in starbucks. attitude la! hmm k k shall not dwell on it animore.

had handball trials today. didnt do well i tink. shit la. i'm startin to suck at everything again. haha... i'm talking as though its seasonal.

i found my saviour in jele mei! yay. finally... hopefully it'll go well n e thing may come out by nxt wk so that i've got ample time to prepare. i'll oso need to rope in a few other accomplices. e list of probable candidates is alr being generated. so everybody pls stay close to ur fones. u nv noe when u'll be called up for this special operation. HAHA.

it's 8:08 PM now

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

here in my room... staring into this blank little white box...
my tutorials r nxt to me but i seriously cannot bring myself to go do them now...
my thoughts r rlly racing wild...
n to b v frank...
theres a desire in me to just break down...
but wth...
i'm stronger den dat... hmmm... m i?

i've been imagining alot of things these days...
most, if not all, are not good.
i'm praying hard dat i'm not right. rlly...
but i'm pissed at my inability to change anything...
how time doesnt permit to do this or that...
to change this or that...
or just find time to do sth tog.
its hard. its hard...

i'm trying to write sth...
but the lack of inspiration is overwhelming...
i dun tink i have e talent...
n i tink it'll prob suck
but i dun care
if it can bring...
sth special to someone's life. or at least a smile to someone's face.

even though i'm not a religious person...
i'm hoping v hard that whoever hears my prayers...
can answer them...
give us strength to tide thru dis period.
give me hope.
bring us happiness.
grant me inspiration.

thank you...

it's 10:21 PM now

back again. hmmm shall talk abt my schoolwork first... at last i'm starting to at least try to do my tutorials. which is good... i guess. -pat on the back- but still it aint good enuff. cos trying to do & being able to do are 2 totally different things. actually i've been thinking dat if i didnt stay in hall... mayb i'd be able to focus more on my studying. cos there'd be less distractions around. but is dat true? plus all e conveniences i get from staying in hall... will i be able to just throw it away like dat?

its definitely a lull period now. everybody's busy with work, studies or exams. it becomes difficult to meet up with anybody & everybody. n when dis happens it gets qt depressing, cos all there is to help u kill off ur time is studying, studying & studying. i going crazy liao la!!!

haiz. theres qt a lot of things dat i'm feeling rite now... but who to tell to leh? diaos...

dis song was randomly played on my laptop... n it made me stop wad i was doing... it touched my heart... here it is... (rem to change encoding to Unicode)


《爱很简单》
忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你 真的很简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我喔......
I love you 无法不爱你 baby
说你也爱我
i love you 永远不愿意 baby 失去你
不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我喔......
I love you 我一直在这里 一直在爱你
I love you 永远都不放弃 这爱你的权利
如果你还有一些困惑 请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你 yes i do i love you

it's 1:58 AM now

Thursday, September 01, 2005

a sudden feeling of dejection...

i made someone angry. n i'm rlly sorry cos e words dat i said... are not what they seem to be. i didnt mean it... but a little too late to say all that now. i'm sorry k? pls dun b angry.

mayb its another of my mini mood swings. those that just come & go. n i sit here in front of the comp, with Zhang Dong Liang's <Ji Mo Bian Jie> ringing in the background... struggling to stay awake. n i rlly mean struggling. i've been stuck at dat same page of that irritating set of notes of integration for the past 15mins. i haven done my maths tutorial... n i dun plan to do it.

but e impt thing is... i'm sitting here... tinking abt sometime, somewhere, somehow &... someone.

rah. my wound just cannot stop leaking pus. n it hurts like hell now. hais.

it's 10:37 AM now