a truthful entry.

as the exams draw closer n closer, the pressure all of us suffer grows exponentially... in fact its starting to suffocate us alr. even the library/my hall room feels like a prison. notice dat i'm saying us, not me... cos its true. everybody seems to b struggling this sem. but hus to be blamed? we do put in the effort to study n keep up... ok mayb not the best effort possible, but its still dere. the stuff we're covering nowadays r getting a little too chim for my liking. its rlly hard to even understand what on earth is going on, let alone master it. Maths... Physics... Programming... Electrical Engineering... its pure madness. n not counting General Bio which i haven touch since the very beginning.

sometimes i wonder y we have to choose to go thru all dese. no... it should b y we chose to take this path of self-torture and inhumanity. y b so eager to push urself into hell again? ok i may b exaggerating, but grab any engineering student off the corridors of NUS n they'll tell u the same thing abt all the unfinishable work & incomprehensible topics.

i've been trying to work hard. at least i've been much more diligent than last sem, which i practically left for dead till just before the exams. but heres the cruel fact of uni life: the moment u take ur foot off the pedal, u'll fall behind the rest & before u noe it, u're busy playing catch-up with the rest. so its like a never-ending spiral... which will eventually lead us to?

i'm not one hu sticks around n just study the whole day. i'll go mad & start having headaches n wadeva-nots. i yearn to have a life. i wan to spend time for myself, spend time with dat someone, spend time with my family. i wan to haf a life. or at least get a life.

but on the brighter side of things... at least i'm seeing love in the air around.... be it love won, love lost. even xiaxue's in love. haha. its nice seeing ppl finding their special ones here... being able to gain sth beyond the description of words... despite being in this nonsense place.

so yep. spread e love around. =)

luv ya all.

it's 8:55 AM now