here in my room... staring into this blank little white box...
my tutorials r nxt to me but i seriously cannot bring myself to go do them now...
my thoughts r rlly racing wild...
n to b v frank...
theres a desire in me to just break down...
but wth...
i'm stronger den dat... hmmm... m i?

i've been imagining alot of things these days...
most, if not all, are not good.
i'm praying hard dat i'm not right. rlly...
but i'm pissed at my inability to change anything...
how time doesnt permit to do this or that...
to change this or that...
or just find time to do sth tog.
its hard. its hard...

i'm trying to write sth...
but the lack of inspiration is overwhelming...
i dun tink i have e talent...
n i tink it'll prob suck
but i dun care
if it can bring...
sth special to someone's life. or at least a smile to someone's face.

even though i'm not a religious person...
i'm hoping v hard that whoever hears my prayers...
can answer them...
give us strength to tide thru dis period.
give me hope.
bring us happiness.
grant me inspiration.

thank you...

it's 10:21 PM now