~Puppy~

2009-03-24T10:11:00.000-07:00

(Sing to the tune of Popeye the Sailorman)

He's siao-eh the Ironman,
he likes to deng deng deng.
He likes to AFI,
he loves to FAFI.
He's siao-eh the Ironman!

this is a private joke... only for those who understand! :)

2009-01-09T11:03:00.000-08:00

最近有个朋友问我，我是不是不开心。她说，她只是靠着自己的自觉，觉得我近期都闷闷不乐。

的确，就如前一个post所记载的一样，有件事情一直闷在心里，让自己整天烦恼。

快乐与不快乐，真的由自己决定吗？

老实说，我是忘了快乐是什么。一心追求自己的梦想，自己的喜与乐。。。最终却只沦落成哀和怒。

所以，最重要的还是那三个字：“做自己。”

很无聊的三个字，但它们的背后却有着盛大的意义。大家扪心自问，到底有几个人是能没有后虑之忧地说自己只做自己，不带任何虚伪的面具？

说到最后，还是决定做自己，保有平常心，快快乐乐地过生活就好了。是你的，终究会属于你。不是你的，又何苦强求？

2009-01-07T09:21:00.000-08:00

First and foremost, happy new year to all. May u all have a blessed 2009.

Hmm, the new year hasn't been all that happy, at least for me. Nothing much to be joyous about. The final sem in NUS beckons, the pain in the ass (read: FYP) remains, and yet we have to worry about employment since graduation is due. Oh well, what the heck.

And something has been on my mind for quite a bit now, and affecting my mood every now and then. It seems an overkill to classify it as mood swings, but it sure is something like that. one moment i'm in heaven, and the next i'm in hell. i'm uncertain of how i feel, and of how i should behave or react. should i just go for it? or whimper and act blur?

seriously, i dont know.

2008-12-26T08:32:00.000-08:00

有时候，有些事，
真的是一言难尽。

其实对于这一切，
自己心里的感觉
只有自己最清楚。

很奇怪。
很奥妙。

但是到了最后，
借用《小娘惹》的一句话：
“认命？不认命？”

2008-12-15T09:16:00.000-08:00

i'm currently addicted to Miss No Good aka 不良笑花, a rather recent or old (subjective) taiwanese serial. thanks to e recommendation from miss huifoon. dont get me wrong, its a good recommendation, and i recommend it every one who's watching this space. just try to tolerate and get past the first 1 episode or so (to get used to Rainie's rather bimbotic voice, but u'll get used to it, and quite possibly like it).

And i'm just back from the cathay from a movie with the siao ehs. hmmm well the movie just reminded me of some things which i've been thinking about. and somehow or another, i just happen to keep seeing such messages everywhere. to put my thoughts simply: it is always important, not to mention good, to pursue a dream. and a dream, can be related to any particular area of life, be it work, family, friends, relationships yada yada yada. u get the drift. but then again, in order to pursue a dream, u must have a dream in the first place right? and well, for me, its been a while since i've dared to have a dream... and i seriously doubt if i have e courage to build another castle in the sky.

hmmm.... 有梦最美

2008-11-28T08:10:00.000-08:00

ok random post. well its e exams period, so...

two down, one more paper to go. one qt good, one cui-ed. oh well.

worried about not being worried for e last paper. with all e psps, youtubes, haotings & wadeva nots. this sem is really turning out to be qt a nightmare.

sidetrack. been rather crazy about sth nowadays. need to shake it out of my head. as i always say, dun be unrealistic. 没有人这样的啦。

freedom beckons on 3rd dec. after that, ktvs & mahjongs pls jio. sports duly welcomed too.

oh ya. hoping to be a man on a mission in dec. time to shed some weight! argh.

2008-10-21T07:32:00.000-07:00

ok yet another random update.

ystd maxim phoned me up and told me dat wef from this coming jan, they will be stopping the publication of maxim due to some ethical issues with the US side (i think that's what i heard). ethical issues. rings a bell? lol.

in any case, the lady offered to change e free subscription to another magazine. n she suggested Men's Health. i duly agreed, cos i think its a good read (with tips on exercises)

so in the span of a week, it has gone from scantily clad women, to overly exposed men. oh well...

2008-10-18T23:56:00.000-07:00

ok got a few buggers on the tagboard kaobei-ing for me to update. so i shall NGAE NGAE update. if u all get bored to death, its none of my business. lol.

1st and foremost, the POEMS stock challenge has concluded. hurhurhur. the table shows dat i'm ranked no.10. siao siao. but then again, the top person has $22million in realized profit. thats a little too unrealistic if u ask me (mine is around $1.26million). so hopefully they find dat fella cheated (like some other bugger who did so during the period of the game & got disqualified). hahahaha. & NO, i'm not gg to treat ppl (ok, drinks still ok, but no meals). i'm in a mini credit crunch of my own, hahaha. those who know why knows; those who dont, too bad.

ok next. hmmm the maxim fiesco has ended. well apparently they found the foto from my friend's online photo album (but wth. wheres e privacy?) anyway, they offered me 6months of free subscription of maxim for any "distress" they may have caused. ok lah, who minds more fotos of scantily clad women? hurhurhur.

ok next next. dis sem is seriously screwed up. damn alot of projs n term papers n quizzes. i'm glad dat 2 quizzes r out of the way, 1 term paper has been completed (due nxt wk). BUT THEN AGAIN, there's still 1 quiz, 1 term paper, 2 projs and not to mention freaking FYP. nabei. who on earth said final year is supposed to be a breeze?

final thing. arsenal has finally returned to WINNING matches. crap shit. but kinda lucky, better to recover their form now... esp when manure is visiting the emirates soon. n due credit to them, they're quite IMBA (hopes rooney sprains his leg or sth)

ok that's all. if u all found this entry to be boring, dun say i didnt warn u all beforehand. LOL.

2008-09-29T08:36:00.001-07:00

a listless and unhappening birthday. lol.

oh well, pretty much expected.

i think its sad, that with each passing year, fewer and fewer ppl actually rem ur bdae. and you rejoice at those whom u dont expect to rem, actually do. and you frown over those whom you thought should, or will remember, don't.

what's worse is that, you've actually braced yourself for this. in fact, you don't really care.

how sad.

2008-09-25T09:34:00.000-07:00

and yes, I HAVE NOT BEEN UPDATING.

and as usual, nth much to blog abt......... until TODAY.

well, other than the sumptuous seafood dinner weisheng, zhiwei & myself had @ JB, there are 2 other episodes which are truly, the main highlights of this week.

the first will be that the brainchild of GLG securities is finally underway. but shall not disclose much, until it bears fruits of returns.

the second will be e battle with Maxim. knn Maxim. the battle drum has been struck. let the battle begin.

(this post may sound very incoherent. pls tune in again [dont know when] for updates for a clearer picture)

2008-07-19T10:29:00.000-07:00

i guess i start every entry with something to e effect of "i haven been updating for awhile." this entry is of no exception.

so, yes. i have not been updating. and no, there havent exactly been alot of interesting things in my life.

other than e episode of me being very badly SCREWED over by NUS. fantastic. and the efficiency of the admin is so amazing that the whole episode has YET to be resolved after 1 whole week, when i'm leaving for genting next mon and will not be back till late fri evening. wth.

anyway, i'm more interested to just blog 1 line, about 1 thing: the damage that can be done by a moment's folly.

i'm not exaggerating. there have been more than 1 recent episodes in life which has left me wondering... when we snap (in both good and bad ways), e repercussions of our decisions/actions more often than not, brings in waves of damage that was well.... unexpected. and for that split moment of madness, exactly how much do we have to sacrifice or bleed out?

and i really wonder what kind of impression do i give other ppl. i'm not referrin to my old friends (they know me well enough, i hope). but other ppl.

so somebody, just hit me with the truth ok?

2008-06-13T19:10:00.000-07:00

yes, i know. i haven been updating my blog. in fact, its so stagnant that as weisheng pointed out, the 1st post is still talking about man utd, when the IN thing now is Euro2008. hahaha. that's how outdated my blog is.

anyway just popping by for a quick update, before i head back to work AGAIN.

its been a really tiring week, with work @ indoor almost everyday (with e exception of mon & wed). aviva badminton tournament, which translates into -> badminton, badminton & more badminton. then again, aviva holds fond memories for many of the ppl @ indoor, cos its normally the 1st event we sign up for since starting work there. but with the long hours of standing, my knees are starting to buckle. lol. couple that with the late hours from watching Euro matches every night, omg, i think my body is dying. HAHAHA.

thankfully been working as senior, so e pay is much more substantial. working as senior is fine, just afraid to step on ppl's toes. i'm always trying to look out for the others' welfare, whether they had breaks alr. afterall, i'll be back to working under some other senior again soon! =)

on a side note, been qt glad to have made qt a bit of friends at indoor. they're v fun ppl to hang out with in fact. for example, the NE gang which coincidentally happens to be the poker/Wii gang. we popped by chunkiat's place over BOTH days last weekedn to play poker and Wii. how happening is that. lol. looking forward to more poker though, been recovering from a poker withdrawal symptom ever since then.

hmm, this post is turning out longer than expected. & i gotta go grab my breakfast.

woo, before i forget, Celtics 3-1 Lakers! woohoo. Netherlands 3-0 Italy, 4-1 France. woohoo.

final note, may mr. hai be happy and peaceful wherever he is. thanks for everything he has done, and for all the advice he has given me during work. we'll all remember him. thank you.

2008-04-29T14:56:00.000-07:00

i just got home from watching the man utd match. 1-0. all english team finals. hurray!

ya right.

anyway, just to give a reply to bert. i have to. i know u're still watching out for this space, cos i read your blog. great minds think alike huh :). and i guess there's not much of an alternative to bring this across.

well, first things first, i'm glad i saw what i saw on the blog. or at least, that is probably what i expected to be the truth behind the whole thing. and for that, i accept and respect it. yesterday when syafiq told me, i defended you and said its not in you to do such a thing, for such a purpose. it cant be bert. thankfully, i'm right.

and yes, i know of the help that you rendered the rest of us as well. in fact, i'll put it bluntly, i think of us as the ones who are more willing to lend a helping hand than some others. and for my comments, my bad. i apologize.

and i'm sick of the finger-pointings and this goddamned peer review as well.

no, i dont want to lose a friend in you as well. friends for 5years. i cant put it any way better than you did.

how about burying the hatchet? this has been a fucked up week and lets just not bring up this ugly episode again. its true, things will probably never be the same again. but one step forward is always better than one step backwards.

2008-04-29T07:27:00.000-07:00

today, e can of worms was opened.

snap. just like that.

but there's so many versions to the story behind that can of worms that i don't know what to believe in anymore.

but what irks me the most... what hurts me the most is that it feels almost like being backstabbed. yes. that's how it feels like.

it isn't about what they decided to do, although i do not agree with what they chose to do. its not even about the ethical issues behind that decision.

its about the fact that we were told that it would be fair. or so i thought. i dont know if i can go as far as to call it a lie, but thats damn sure what it feels like.

its about the fact that i treat everybody as friends. truthfully. and yet what came back wasn't the reciprocal.

maybe i'm naive. when people asked me for help, i gave. i truly believe that i did, even if i was irritated. but i did. i treated everybody as friends.

so now i dont know how i will act or behave. i've said many times today "how to trust anymore? how do you want me to treat you?" but at the end of the day, i will be ok. my conscience is clear.

and people tell me to forgive and forget.

so, friends? yes.

but things will probably never be the same again.

2008-04-28T10:48:00.000-07:00

food for thought time again:

when u are in trouble/need help, i've got your back.

when i'm in trouble/need help, do u have mine covered?

true friends. truth or myth?

2008-04-25T19:02:00.000-07:00

let me throw u this scenario:

u have a car. u have 2 kids. 1 needs to use the car to go to work tonight, cause it will end late & no transport back. 1 needs to use the car to go ECP for god-knows-what.

who do u give the car to?

........

ok i think i'll return them e money they gave me to take cab. i've got more backbone than that. i can take a goddamn nightrider if i have to.

2008-04-19T10:08:00.000-07:00

allow me to bitch.

no. wait a min. this is MY blog. y am i asking for permission? lol.

have been doing abit of reflecting/deep thinking these days. yes, in e midst of all dat studying.

can i call it an identity crisis? maybe. or perhaps its just another one of my regular mood swings. but after the mastercard episode, i have somewhat been brought back to reality, to see things from... a different view?

and so, i question myself: "what do i want? for my career. for my life. for EVERYTHING in my life." and the puzzling thing is, i'm unable to answer myself. damn.

for the career bit, its a little nerve-wrecking. considering e fact that i'm heading into my final yr soon; considering e fact that i have yet to secure an internship; considering e fact that i have yet to decide what to go into after grad; considering e fact that i'm still so ignorant about so many things... yada yada yada. with dat, comes ALOT of self-doubt.

dis carries forward to e portion on my life. and so now i know alot of "i-am/was-not"s. for e fun of it, lets just list them down.
- i was not born with a silver spoon in my mouth; but thankfully i'm born into a nice family, fairly good upbringing. but obviously not e one doted on, yet alwaes get e sai kang for being much more reliable than e other dude in e house
- i was not born to be tall (duh)
- i was not born good-lucking (duh again)
- i was not born smart (not THAT smart)
ok crap so far... more importantly
- i was not born to be a leader
- i was not born to be a people's man
- i was probably not born to enjoy success in life

and with that last line i can probably sum up things in my life thus far. no success in career (or career prospects), no success in studies, no success in love, no success in alot of things. and yet at e same time, i cant pinpoint wad it is dat i exactly want in my life.

screw it. i dont even know myself. i carry this face when i'm with this person. i put on another persona when interacting with another individual. and yet i cant describe who i truly am. more often than not, i choose e easy way out, which will be to make light-hearted chitchat & crack jokes, just to lighten up e atmosphere. but hey, hu can truly say that they know me, when even i dont know myself?

i rem telling sara, that i wanna turn evil. at least in that way, i can do wad i like & not give a shit about what other ppl think. but then again, its just not in my bones to be evil. i rather be nice, and be accepted. on e other hand, its tiring, to alwaes be nice to ppl, to be aware of wad others think & feel, to TRY to be e ppl's man. do i always have to play nice? to you?

so, what should i do? what do i want out of life? where do i head from here? probably questions with answers that i will never find.

enough bitching. back to studying. and watching man utd lose to blackburn. =p

and some of e mtvs of e nice songs david tao sang today. i like these songs. =)

2008-04-15T10:22:00.000-07:00

reality check? [tick!]

and so today e mighty dreams of Team AutoSol'n came crumbling down.

apart for those privileged few who already know, we didnt win anything for our case challenge. didnt expect there to be 7 teams. didnt expect us to not win the category. didnt expect reality to hit this hard.

so moral of the story? never put ur hopes too high. its true when they say that e higher u are, e harder u fall.

but then again, would i change anything that happened in the past weeks? that's a no-brainer actually. its a definite no. nothing will take away the fun, joys, pissing-offs, brain-dead ("i cant do it" - private joke) that i had from preparing for the proposal & ultimately, the presentation. i do not wan to take away credits from 2 of my bestest friends, siao eh 1 & 2... i mean zhiwei & merbra. kudos to dem for their intellect dat got us so far. hope i wasnt much of a burden to dem. LOL.

so, what we got from this entire experience.... is the desire for more. will we be back next yr? of course. will we be better? definitely. will we win? only time will tell.

but hey, no more regrets. time to study & bury myself in books.

and besides, it was a private function at Equinox. oh my goodness. =)

2008-04-12T09:58:00.000-07:00

and today i amazed myself again.

had work earlier. the crowd was &(_)#%&)&)#*@#*_. ask anybody else who worked. some big ego assholes. hmph. but whatever. now i know which events to NEVER work for.

anyway, back to the point.

i impressed myself with my ability to two-face. that said, it's sth like putting on a facade. put on a smile, and i can hang out with ppl that i dont even feel attached to. or ppl that i shouldnt even hang out with.

and so i ponder again, why do i even bother? mayb i should just heck care, and ignore everything. but that aint rlly me huh.

side track, today i felt good. despite all the power struggle at work (certain ppl should know), it feels good to sort things out & wan to play no part in this backstabbing shit. just go back to work & act blur, enjoy the show & have fun.

that's it.

2008-04-04T07:35:00.000-07:00

这个。。。更感人喔。看得，都有点想哭。哈哈哈。

他说他不浪漫。屁啦！！ =)

2008-04-04T07:07:00.000-07:00

很喜欢的一首歌。原唱是张雨生，再由五月天翻唱。是在几年前的8月25日七夕情人节演唱会上唱的。当时，到了歌曲的尾声，团里的bassist石头披上了大衣，向他那时候的女朋友求婚。场面很感人，很罗曼蒂克。

很想也能为自己喜欢的人，做这么一个永生难忘的事情。=)

曾经为了莫一个女孩唱这首歌。吉他，练得快死了。哈哈哈。但很开心，因为学会了如何自弹自唱一首自己很喜欢的歌曲。（但现在已经忘了啦！）

最近得知，这首歌的填词，是作词的音乐人为了表达对自己的妹妹的思念而写的。他的妹妹，很不幸，淹水溺毙。原来这么动人的歌的背后，还有那么一个感人的故事。

希望你也会喜欢。=)

2008-04-03T11:14:00.000-07:00

today i shall talk about this interest of mine, which most people should know about.

yes, that will have to be singing. =) i really enjoy singing, although i do have to apologize to my neighbours who have had to tolerate my singing for god-knows how many years. but its fun aint it? i sing literally everywhere (at home), and i absolutely adore ktv.

i think songs are a beautiful thing. they convey feelings like no other things can. a simple melody can invoke emotions deep within u... & u add that to some of e most beautiful poetry u can find in those damned lyrics. woah... a perfect concoction for the heartbroken and those bliss with love.

hearing them is one thing, but to sing them is another. to listen to a song, love it, and then express it in your own interpretation... it opens a whole new world of experience. and nothing beats the feeling when u manage to bring across e emotions dat u put into e song to someone who actually stops to listen to you. apparently there hasnt been anybody hu has stopped to listen to me yet. LOL

i've contemplated on attending singing lessons. but they're expensive... plus i'm... alittle too old? i dont know. a 24 year old gg for singing lessons seem somewhat a far-fetched idea for me.

i've contemplated on joining singing competitions as well, but.... my lack of confidence always gets the better of me.

i would rlly like to have a part-time career... singing in those pubs or what-have-you. but this sort of environment is more available in taiwan & not singapore. besides, will i rlly have that kind of a courage or even ability to pick up such a job? LOL

oh well, a dream will always stay a dream. nothing more, nothing less.

2008-04-02T02:28:00.001-07:00

the feeling of nostalgia strikes again. i was browsing through my photos on Picasa. =)

and so i've decided to upload some photos. i believe everybody should do sth liddat too, somewhat of a walk down memory's lane.

so here u will find my friends, which i will always remember! and if u're not here, it means.... *ahem*... dat i dun have ur photo. hahaha. have fun. =)

2008-04-02T02:24:00.000-07:00

the brotherhood. =))

2008-04-02T02:23:00.000-07:00

Best Friends. Bintan 2005. has it been that long??

2008-04-02T02:21:00.001-07:00

TAIWAN!!! *roar*

2008-04-02T02:21:00.000-07:00

zhiwei, me, kiabor. TAIWAN!! =)

2008-04-02T02:19:00.000-07:00

weiqi's birthday! alien, monkey's uncle, wise elder. LOL

2008-04-02T02:18:00.000-07:00

ktv with the SIS peeps. =) chunkiat, belle, huilin, wendy, cat, me.

2008-04-02T02:17:00.000-07:00

yunxin's 21st birthday. back - peini, weiqi, zhiwei. front- merbra, tszshan, wanyie, yunxin, me, siyu, weisheng. =)

2008-04-02T02:16:00.000-07:00

my birthday last yr. hurhurhur. =)

2008-04-02T02:15:00.000-07:00

& again. Zefeng, me, jas, kim, wanyyi, roland. zefeng's birthday.

2008-04-02T02:13:00.000-07:00

Kim's birthday! Roland, Wanyi, Me, Jasmine, Zefeng, Jas, Kim (in front)

2008-04-02T02:12:00.000-07:00

TPA photoshoot. Merbra, Yanjie, Yunxin, Primero, Weiqi, Peini, me.

2008-04-02T02:11:00.001-07:00

Jelena mei's 21st Birthday party. =)

2008-04-02T02:11:00.000-07:00

Boss & Me. Boss 21st birthday. =)

2008-04-02T02:10:00.000-07:00

Grace, me, Tsz Shan. MOS - NTU Hall 4 Bash.

2008-04-02T02:09:00.000-07:00

Some random meet up. Melissa, Wangui, Merbra (too fast too furious), me.

2008-04-02T02:08:00.000-07:00

GP & TPA. After opening for Chinese Arts Fest @ Botanic Gardens.

2008-04-02T02:07:00.000-07:00

TPA. After performance at Esplanade. From left: Weisheng, Eugene, Yanjie, Merbra, Mr Quek, Yunxin, Yanyi, me, Marcus, Wanyie.

2008-04-02T02:06:00.000-07:00

NS mates. From left: me, raphael (mang), azrul, desmond, jinhuan, louis

2008-04-02T02:05:00.000-07:00

Ah. GP lo. But this one has sharon in it. with kim & wanyi too. 21st Birthday Celeb.

2008-04-02T02:04:00.000-07:00

Girl's Percussion again. National Day celeb performance @ Marina Bay.

2008-04-02T02:03:00.000-07:00

Girl's Percussion. Back - Yvonne (meinu), Ah Pok, Jasmine, Ruyi (nuren), Liping, Shimin. Front - Irys, Clarice, Belle, Aiysha, Huimin.

2008-04-02T02:01:00.000-07:00

TPA, after drumming explosion. Back - Yunxin, Zhengyi, Weisheng. Front - Me, Yanjie, Merbra, Wanyie.

2008-04-02T01:58:00.000-07:00

the dhsco gang. colin, david, peiyi, debbie, gloria, me & weixiong. damn long ago lah.

2008-03-31T17:24:00.000-07:00

i forgot about the dateline for uploading the project report.

WTF.

anyways, just to pop by and type out some thoughts of mine.

well, friends will noe me as e crappy, fun, alwaes-joking fella.

close friends will noe me to be a little more emo, perhaps with a tinge of OCD to go with it.

best friends will noe alot more about me... there's a reason why they're called best friends rite?

& finally... i will noe myself to be e fella that doesnt like confrontations. e fella dat prefers to smile and crack a bloody lame joke to get over dat weird moment. e fella dat keeps qt a bit of stuff within him & emos when hes alone.

but to hell with that. so if you have ever upset me, angried me, pissed me off, made me feel cheated & hurt, DAMN YOU. maybe what i used to think was right is actually wrong. perhaps we do need to block a few people out of our lives.

nonetheless, live for the moment & stay happy (try to learn from ms how). i'm gonna try that too. and to whoever stepped/stepping/going to step on my toes, i'm gonna give u a piece of my mind. piss off.

2008-03-27T08:49:00.000-07:00

busy. busy. busy.

that is what my life has been recently, and will be in the upcoming week.

first and foremost, the Engineering Professionalism project. That is due next monday, and it doesn't help that one of the member's work is so bad that it totally cant be used. i dont mean it for like... one portion of her work. its ALL of her work. so basically i did her part for her as well. and to think that she can still call that part of the project "her part". goodness.

our design project is also due in 2 weeks time. testing has to be done. presentation materials has to be done (read: by me). lol. let's just hope for the best.

the other big project will be the case challenge competition that some of you may be aware of. well... we got into the finals! YAY! so exciting... cos we suspect that we have won for our category (but we'd rather be conservative) and now we're gg for the final presentation to go for the grand prize. n the best thing is that this whole project is done with best friends, so the satisfaction gained is doubled, or even multiplied. but there's still a whole lot of things to be done for this... & it will be a mad rush ahead.

so as you can see, will be pretty busy from juggling school work and all these projects. but obviously the last one will take priority over the rest. so... if you dont see me, or i dont reply ur msgs or whatsoever, pls forgive me! =)

2008-03-18T09:51:00.000-07:00

i don't know what's wrong with me.

i thought things will turn out okay.

but it just seems like i'm wrong.

感觉。。。好像心死了

2008-03-11T10:18:00.001-07:00

been listening to AlterBridge. magnificent band. really really good.

& i rlly love this song.

Watch Over You lyrics

Leaves are on the ground
Fall has come
Blue skies turning grey
Like my love

I tried to carry you
And make you whole
But it was never enough
I must go

[Chorus:]
Who is gonna save you
When I'm gone?
And who'll watch over you
When I'm gone?

You say you care for me
But hide it well
How can you love someone
And not yourself?

[Chorus]

And when I'm gone
Who will break your fall?
Who will you blame?

I can't go on
And let you lose it all
It's more than I can take
Who'll ease your pain?
Ease your pain

[Chorus:]
And Love is gonna save you
When I'm gone.
And I'll watch over you.
And I will give you strength
When you're not strong.
Who'll watch over you,
When I've gone away?

Snow is on the ground
Winters come
You long to hear my voice
But I'm long gone

2008-03-06T19:04:00.000-08:00

i'm riding off the back of a whole long night of rushing the proposal for the mastercard case challenge. oh hell. we slugged through the entire night (w/o sleep) and managed to come up with something to hand in. it's still being pingpong-ed between the 3 of us to browse through it and do some final editting. I've just done my round of vetting. Now the ball's in merbra's court.

Well, let's just say that thankfully they're in the team. Cos i was really short of ideas last night and didnt contribute much at all. Oops. So thank goodness for the 2 of them.

hmmm. amazingly i still dont feel sleepy. or rather, i dont really wan to head to bed. because i noe that when i lie down, facing the ceiling and trying to clear my thoughts, my mind wanders... to things that i'd rather not think about.

it's been a rough week. with tests, projects, workshops, fabrication, and something else happening... i guess i'm pretty much drained and done for the week. i'm actually glad that i managed to study and get through the econs test pretty much unscathed. amazing. some shit luck.

yada yada yada.

so its closure of another chapter in my somewhat insignificant life. but that's life, aint it? move on.

Everybody says: "Life is like a rollercoaster. It has its fair share of ups and downs."

I say: "The sad thing is that at the end of the day, you have to come back to dock and get your feet back on the ground."

2008-03-05T08:41:00.001-08:00

2008-02-18T06:50:00.000-08:00

well thanks to a certain miss yang who bugs me to update my blog... so here i am.

in any case, i tried to find a nicer and newer skin to make this blog have a breadth of new life... but as u can probably see, it was to no avail. anyway i'll probably still scout for a new skin when i'm more free.

so yes, updates on my life. first and foremost, this semester has started and it's pretty much into the midst of it already. boy, does time fly. and the worst thing is that this sem is actually quite slack, which has left me feeling a lot lazier than i had been for the past semesters. no matter wad, i have to start pulling up my socks cos these modules are pretty hard to master... so i shall not be deceived into thinking dat i can get a grasp of wadeva nonsense the lecturers are saying in the short 1 week study break before the exams. buck up!

well, chinese new year & valentine's have come and passed just like that *snap* and of cos as usual no valentine's date for this year. mmmm.. pretty sad huh? lol.

mmm have a loss of what else to update. inspiration draught. shall be back more often i guess.

turn back the hands of time.
and eat my words.

2008-02-09T11:16:00.000-08:00

男孩并没有大步，大步地迈向幸福。。。

而如今，心里更加地痛。

痛；并非自身的痛。

痛；是因为伤他人心的痛。

痛；是亲手破坏童话故事的痛。

痛；是因为她的痛。

男孩并没有大步，大步地迈向幸福。。。也许连一小步都没跨开过。

2007-10-10T09:10:00.000-07:00

“也许有一天，男孩的心不会再痛，不再有任何挂念；他就能大步，大步地迈向幸福。”

--吕昱纬（2007）

a random moment of brilliance! =)

2007-10-09T09:03:00.000-07:00

199th post. 1 more to 200. hurray!

nowadays it seems that whenever i blog, its because some unhappy person tells me i haven been blogging regularly enuff. so pls, if u noe hu u r, pls leave a tag! lol... =)

some things have to be done... so lets get it out of the way first. Birthday shoutouts! Well... Happy 21st to Yunxin! very impt. =) & of cos a big happy birthday to Huaiyu & Cherlene as well. big big month ahead with plenty of bdaes upcoming (read: lots of cash outflow!)... actually rather broke now. mmmm share presents anyone?

well, the reason behind e lack of posts is purely laziness & of cos, having a rlly rlly mundane life. school as usual, takes up a huge chunk of my time. lazing around takes up an even larger proportion. rlly need to buck up now dont i? exams coming soon! *growl

sidetrack a little. after listening to so many different kinds of music... i mean mainstream music... like english, chinese... i've come to a conclusion dat deep down, i'm a true blue chinese fella! altho alot of crappy works nowadays, but i rlly like those with nice melody & lyrics. yes... ppl will say dat some of e lyrics r so cheesy... but so wad? i like can alr wad. i rlly rlly like emo songs! those dat r so sad that they make u tear. yep those kind. hahaha! =) emo chinese songs suits me most!

ok la. damn random post. but what to do? if not ppl will complain. hahaha!

oh btw. a happy bdae shoutout to myself as well =)... (not a lot of ppl remembered tho! sigh!)

P.S: BOSS! if u c dis, come back soon! =X

2007-09-24T06:05:00.000-07:00

this is an angry/pissed off post.

seriously, sometimes i cannot apprehend how some ppl think/behave. & its even more puzzling dat sometimes we call them our friends.

what exactly constitutes a "friend"? there's e old old buddy friends. there's e last-time-my-classmate friends. there's e hello-byebye friends. & there's e friends-of-convenience kind of friends.

i cant exactly stand friends-of-convenience kind of friends, especially those dat r very self-centred... and well, basically e world revolves around them. they stamp on ur shoulders to climb higher, they play all nice in front of u and dump u once u've outlived ur use-by date. i dun getit as to why we even bother to befriend them n make our own lives difficult. n y on earth cant they b more responsive & sensitive to e others around them?

dats y i love my old old buddy friends. dont meet that much nowadays, but we never rlly grow out-of-touch. everytime we meet, u kaobei me, i kaobei u, laff until stomach pain, everybody goes home happy. unrealistic this, unfriendly that. all e kanakanacheebeh lingo. doing all e guailan things together. wont change this friendships for anything in e world.

ok. maybe for 1billion bucks & a hot chick.

morale of e story: forget about friends. just stick to e good old ones.

oh. & never cross a libra. u're obviously looking for trouble.

2007-09-19T08:02:00.000-07:00

seems like everyody's in e happy birthday mood! haha! so i shall join in e fun & do my belated birthday shoutouts!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY (belated) TO ZEFENG & AH POK!

from zefeng's bdae celeb, i've concluded dat if u put wanyi, kim, jasmine & jas together.... all hell breaks loose. hahahaha! dont kill me.

speaking of birthdays, i've received a super early birthday present. flown all the way from FINLAND from my dear BOSS! my boss rocks la. =) very touched ya! especially since it was sooooo unexpected. thanks boss! (psst. i still demand my pay)

2007-09-08T10:26:00.000-07:00

用中文写blog或diary，已成为了习惯，以及喜好。

今天，很不开心。很难解释到底是哪些事情让我感到那么难过，相信也很少人能了解吧。。。

最近碰到了许多瓶颈，不论是在学业上，或是其他的领域上都一样。。。一直很难取得进步。。。满足于现在的那种“裹足不前”的心理慢慢地在心中萌芽。往往对自己感到很无奈，想说为何一切的一切会落到今天如此的地步。

读了自己很久之前的一些blog entries，也翻读了几位朋友的blog。。。发现到很多人都变了。放下了他们以前的回忆，朝着未来前进。。。难免地，开始觉得自己与他们之间的距离也越来越远了。

回想我自己，在原地踏步了那么久了。。。也许是时候该放下一些感情，放下心中的那些包袱了。为自己拟定了一个日期，想说在那一天重新开始，再启程吧。那么。。。就选择在那天吧。。。

其实我的心愿并不复杂。。。

我只要快乐。难道有那么难吗？

2007-08-28T07:42:00.000-07:00

This post, goes out to my boss.

As i'm typing this entry right now, she's probably fidgeting in her seat on her airplane. Well, she's flying off to Finland for an exchange program u c. For one sem. ALONE.

i think that takes a lot of guts. to pack ur bags n leave for a country renowned for its handphones (ok... that was irrelevant), i'd say u rlly need balls for dat. For sure, i dont have dat kinda guts. so i take my hat off to boss for dat!

aniwae, it was qt a light-hearted send off, with all e jokes going on... most of which was directed towards her of course. but i was quite taken aback when she cried before she crossed e gates. then i realised how surreal it must b for her.

well, its hard to say it out loud... but will miss her. our weekly lunches (to b resumed when u come back i presume!!!), msn chats, random suppers. so boss, pardon me for not saying these out earlier ok?

at e end, just let me wish her a very happy trip (with her 1.85m male pick-up buddy no less)... a fruitful learning experience & of cos plenty of love, from e ppl back here in e tiny island of Singapore.

Bon voyage Boss!

2007-08-26T06:27:00.001-07:00

有时候真的很讨厌自己。。。

最近觉得自己越来越不像自己，变得情绪很不稳定，很容易发火和发闷骚，做出不理智的决定。

也许就是mood swing，也许是更难以理解的心理变化。。真的很想再拾起那只会创作写词的笔，借用歌词的力量来抒写出自己的心情。

或许，是时候该找回自己，收拾心情，继续走下去。。。

2007-08-19T09:08:00.000-07:00

and so the 1st week of sch has come & gone... nth much has changed. still e same old familiar faces in lecture. lecturers still as cannot make it as before. stuff we're studying still as boring & turnoff. e same old girls to look at (aiyah. wad u expect. engine leh.)

it's been hard to raise my spirits or my mood these days. cant take my mind off things.

i miss the holidays when i could just roll around in bed till 12noon.

i miss the few minutes before the curtains opened for Unisono.

i miss the times when we were all slugging out in preparation for the concert.

i miss the times we all nearly died from e heat in mr ngoh's studio.

i miss the times we were all amazed by weiqi's vibes solo.

i miss the times when me & yunxin met every other day, & took bus home after practice.

i miss the times we laughed at yanjie for almost no reason (ok la. it was just me)

i miss... everything.

2007-08-13T01:57:00.000-07:00

PEINI IS DAMN BLUR. she got lost in NUS. hahahahahahaha! oops.

aniwae i found dis from my earlier entries. something i wrote back in april/may 06. hope u all like it. :)

望着窗外遥远的天边
此刻你心里在想着谁
天空洒下的每颗雨滴
又把我的思念传给了谁

二月十四那一天
寂寞是因为没你在身边
却告诉自己继续努力
总有一天你会多看我一眼

我明白
过去的阴影依然笼罩你的心
裹足不前也算是必然的回应
但我给过的诺言永远不改变
把快乐给你幸福给你
等待留给我自己

往后的路也是漫长艰辛
也许会跌到也会哭泣
但别害怕我会一路陪着你
逗你欢笑给你依靠
擦干你泪滴

为你写的歌一篇又一篇
对你的想念一点多一点
不能改变的事就搁放一边
更精彩的世界已近在眼前

在这样的温柔夜晚里
好像听见你的声音
听你骂我无聊和傻气
再轻轻地对你说
“对不起，我爱你。”

2007-08-11T10:25:00.000-07:00

i admit, dat by my standards, i'm a hopeless romantic. ('blame ur horoscope' so says my BOSS) i'm a sucker for romance, and an even bigger sucker for emo songs.

songs r a wonderful tool to express one's feelings, esp when u're feeling down. troubled by love? relationships? friendships? society problems? turn to a well-written song & u'll nv go wrong.

i'll confess qt a number of songs have left me sobbing after hearing dem (a pitiful sight, rlly...) but who is to blame a libra for being so emotional? tsk.

then again... who can better understand/express my feelings, than these emo songs?

i'll put up a few of those songs soon. so pls stay tuned.

2007-08-02T11:23:00.001-07:00

2007-07-31T05:59:00.000-07:00

well dis song is e song @ e end of each episode of "shou zu"... the 7pm show on ch8. i think its a very nice song. very beautiful lyrics too!

& the dog is damn freaking cute! =)

也许大男人，真的很难忍。。。

2007-07-29T00:14:00.000-07:00

hihi. i guess its time to start blogging again.. before weisheng forces me to tear it down. lol. well i thought i should give the blog an image overhaul, thus e new blogskin. kinda cute. =)

and so this 3mnths holiday has come & gone. sch will resume in 2 weeks time. another 6months of grueling studies and whatever-not. seriously not looking forward to it. but what to do? in zhiwei's terminology, we just hafta suck thumb. lol.

e highlight of this holidays... undoubtedly has to b TPA's debut concert... that was held on 13th July. well, although i haf to admit that there were many areas which we could have improved on, i'd say it was a very good effort for a debut concert. a big thank you goes out to all those who came & supported us, ppl that responded to our SOS calls. lol. another big big big thanks to all e backstage crew, e helpers, n guest performers: zhiwei, weisheng, kiabor, tszshan, grace, joel, debbie, jele mei. a big pat on e back for a good job for all e performers: eugene, yiheng, peini, weiqi, shuying, primero, marcus, yunxin, yanjie, merbra. as yanjie puts it... it is rlly qt unbelievable dat we managed to pull this concert off. all e difficulties & uncertainties that we faced, we stuck together & made it through. i'm v glad & proud to b a member of TPA & to b in e organising com for e concert.

now 2wks after e concert... e dust has more or less settled. gathering mixed feedback from e audiences, much depends on how we decide to move on from dis glorious chapter of tpa's history. but it's also very sad to noe that certain individuals can be so narrow-minded in their thinking and try to write off our grp. but as alwaes, wadeva he says just goes to prove dat we're doing better. and honestly, i dont care. e more somebody tries to put us down, e harder we will fight to prove our worth.

i have fostered mixed feelings after the concert. feelings towards certain events, or certain people. there are also feelings that cannot be told, thoughts dat i can only keep to myself. and of course regrets, amongst many other things, will nv fail to haunt me.

but nonetheless, i'm proud of what we've accomplished. and i'm rlly happy for all e bonds & friendships built... ppl like peini & weiqi whom i've not kept in contact with. true friends who came & supported the concert (or at least replied our msgs).

Unisono. TPA. blood. sweat. tears.

Thank you. All of you.

2007-06-20T07:36:00.000-07:00

tonight i blog abt a very big crisis dat our nation is facing.......... the uprising of young punks/wannabes. i mean seriously.. they're a bloody pain in the ass. and they are made even more detestable by the fact that they r all owners of mp3 phones... which somehow they will never keep below its maximum volume.

the music they on are so loud, that you can easily identify them from like... 50metres away?! handphone=loudhailer? tonight we had a perfect example onboard bus no.12. This bloody idiot, came onboard with his 2 friends and starting blasting mandopop songs. n i mean BLAST... like even ppl in the lower deck could hear every single word the singer was mouthing. mayb even e driver in e car nxt to e bus could have heard. i guess that cockhead probably left his ears/eyes/BRAINS at home. non-existent manners aside, how can he and his little goonies be so self-absorbed in their little "look! i'm-so-hip" world, that they dont realise they're making a bloody fool & nuisance out of themselves?

theres a fine line btwn being a cock young punk & being guai lan. (trust me. i noe. ask any member of the guai lan gang. lol) i seriously suggest dat all dese bloody young punks get locked away, with their handy little mp3 fones thrown deep into the sea. THAT will call for a national celebration. who seconds my idea?

2007-06-18T07:05:00.000-07:00

ok long overdue post! i think its always very funny that kim/wanyi will always be the 1st to complain about me not blogging. hahaha. ok maybe its becos they're e only ones that have been popping by to check on this blog, others prob think its dead already. hurhur.

shit. i've been typing so many formal emails out nowadays dat i tend to type so formally. argh!

ok life has been pretty monotonous (from my last post till now)... i've picked up squash tho! so fun! even splashed out cash on a racket! so ppl hu wan to play, jio me ok?! i v on one. hahaha.

met azrul, colin & co for lunch today. they still talk cock. but its pretty weird having the OOM around. hmmmm but whatever la. doesnt rlly concern me. bball & PS with them nxt mon. will be good. will be good. reminiscent of the good old times =)

been pretty busy/stressed with the upcoming concert. yes... i shall do some shameless advertisement here. for ppl that dont already know... the grp i'm in... The Percussion Assembly is staging its debut concert. Pls pls pls pls pls pls support!!! Details are as follow:
Name: UNISONO
Date: 13 July 07 (Fri)
Time: 730pm
Venue: NTUC Auditorium (@ NTUC building, near raffles place mrt)
Ticket: $12

Pls support ok? =)

2007-05-04T20:48:00.000-07:00

for anyone who watches American Idol 6, i bet u'll now hu this is. well, this is melinda doolittle, arguably the most talented contestant to come through on this show (that's what i believe too). i've been won over by her since her auditions. great personality, impeccable vocals.

this was her performance a week back, & i've watched this video like... dozens of times already, but every single time i still get the chills. & psst... i watch this video before all my papers cos it kinda instills a little hope in me. hahaha. a little silly yes...

heres the vid. (stupid blogspot has sth wrong with uploading the vid, so heres the url)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tjfpd9Q3teM

2007-05-02T03:38:00.000-07:00

okok i rlly ought to post something already. before i lose all of my readers. right?

well there's nothing much more to talk about other than exams. the papers have come & gone so quickly, sometimes i rlly wonder why we bother to put so much effort into studying for them in the first place. hmmm. food for thought? the general standard for this sem's ppr has certainly been raised, especially mechanics and maths, which practically brought everybody's morale down into a bottomless pit. some other papers were ok, like design, fluids & feedback. but it seems like everybody could do the ppr? so how to get advantage/good grades? lol.

nonetheless, i'm glad i've survived yet another torturous sem. of cos my heartfelt thanks goes out to my NUS buddies, syafiq (nong), gilbert (bert), alex (brother) & raphael (mang/hao peng you). If not for them, i seriously doubt that i could have tolerated for so long, been so studious during the last study break. hoping everybody will do as well as last sem, if not better. it's been a great sem, with our non-stop talk cock sessions which left us laffing harder than studying. n how can i ever forget about our never-ending bio-ing sessions in the central library 6th floor. hurhur. its been fruitful i must say, now that we have officially gotten to know siling & cheryl. (the BEGS meet the BAGS <- private joke) but a tinge of regret still hangs over the fact that i didnt get to talk to my rui en! shucks. when i decided that i should go talk to her, she stopped coming to the library. dont care, nxt sem!

i'm currently still mugging for my last ppr, Genes & Society, which is on friday. 100mcqs in 2hrs, wan to kill us issit? well, the drive to study is understandably not there. but will rlly have to push myself, wont i? focus! & keep my feet on the ground! dats if i do want to push my cap past the 2nd upper mark by this sem. sheesh.

that's all for now. pretty sad that i'm stuck here blogging & mugging, instead of being out there celebrating jasmine's birthday with the others. hmmm. sorry girl. aniwae wishing u a very HAPPY 21st BDAE. =)

2007-03-15T06:34:00.000-07:00

i know i haven been blogging regularly. but today i've decided to take a little time off to do this. or rather, i have to do this.

today, i learnt of the passing of a friend's mum. a kind and warm lady, whom i liked very much. i knew her personally... but perhaps not that much. but i still rem her when we went over to their house, when we teased her son in front of her, when she called me once to ask if her kid was with us.

it's always sad to learn of someone's passing. regardless of the manner it took place.

so my heart goes out to this fine woman, and of course to my friend.

stay strong.

2007-02-14T05:25:00.000-08:00

ok i'm back to blog. altho v much later, but at least i fulfill the promise rite?!

lol. some photos from the thailand/taiwan trip posted below. v much overdue... but i still laff my ass off when i'm looking through the photos. hurhur.

well today's valentine's day, but its just another day for me. at least for this year? lol. although it is never fun being alone on valentine's (cos u c everybody else in pairs n stuff), but i must admit that i'm glad for this little bit of breathing space. Not having to think of where to go, what to do, what presents to prepare, what surprises to throw... spares me all the headache.

on the other hand, i do miss the excitement in preparing gifts & surprises... guess not really into that kind of mood anymore... but hopefully one day it'll b back? haha. its rlly great fun preparing for all that... all the mad rush & everything. & of course the great sense of achievement & happiness when u c the other person so happy. lol.

side-track: birthday shoutouts to Azrul & Jacinta! =)

2007-02-09T07:30:00.000-08:00

idiots. PERIOD. hahaha
beautiful huh? (day)
beautiful huh? (night)

2007-02-09T07:28:00.000-08:00

when in doubt, have a cup of Mee Sua.
or McCrispy (when was the last time u ate that??!!)
or THE pork chop that flys u to heaven... almost.

2007-02-09T07:26:00.000-08:00

zhiwei pose.
kiabor ALSO pose.
I MOST NATURAL LAH.

2007-02-09T07:23:00.000-08:00

& u tink orchard's crowded??
taipei 101
SAUNA. shiok but fuckin hot.

2007-02-09T07:20:00.000-08:00

ZW: this way
Me: no. that way lah.
ZW: go where?
Me: here lo.
if lost in taiwan, do the sign to signal for help.

2007-02-09T07:18:00.000-08:00

damn cute puppy we saw somewhere in thailand
nice... erm... building
see? even s'poreans can be suaku. lol!

2007-02-09T07:17:00.000-08:00

leaving S'pore lor
in thai hotel lift...
i was trying to take a photo of the statue... really...

2007-01-22T06:23:00.000-08:00

First & foremost, lemme make a rlly impt announcement:
*clears throat* Ahem e previous post wasnt posted by me... but jasmine! lol. she hack my account! haha no la. i gave her my username & password. "=.=

but in any case, i will try to blog more frequently from now onwards, despite the lack of interesting activity in my life for me to blog about. hurhurhur.

for now, just lemme brag for a few more mins, hrs, days, weeks...
[Old Trafford] Man Utd 0-1 Arsenal
[Emirates] Arsenal 2-1 Man Utd

We've done the double! whhhhhhheeeeeeeee.

A draw should have been a more fair result, but dat's football for u. Hopefully clarice doesnt kill me for posting this. hmmm...

out.

2007-01-12T05:39:00.000-08:00

hereby mr. loo yuwei promise everyone that i will blog every other day and promise every entry is with substance (due to the lack of substance in all my previous entries).

2006-10-31T07:45:00.000-08:00

i woke up from a bad nightmare a few days ago. n it was rlly awful. i dreamt dat a family member passed away. (i shall not reveal e name, cos i firmly believe dat it is inauspicious.) & everything felt so real. the situation, the emtions of sadness, realising how much u miss that person/how much dat person actually meant to u. & so i woke up with a start, and was pondering whether i should go check and confirm that it was only a nightmare. luckily i didnt, cos it would have been pretty stupid wouldn't it? haha.

aniwae i rlly dono y i'm typing dis entry. hohoho. but e bottomline is: i strongly urge everybody to treasure the ppl around u, especially ur family.

*touchwood* take a minute off and think about this. try to picture wad u'll do/feel if one of them rlly pass away? n dis applies to both family and friends. how will ur life change? dat thought sent a shiver down my spine. i'm pretty damn sure it did the same to u.

so pls, start learning to treasure ppl around u, even if its only a little bit more everyday.

2006-10-28T21:03:00.000-07:00

HAHAHA. i got dis from boss's blog. hohoho.

See what Care Bear you are.

2006-10-27T09:07:00.000-07:00

i'm stealing dis from chun... cos i tink its v meaningful. =)

There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend.
He's always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and laterwrote a letter to her saying.
"Just take care of my eyes dear."

This is how human mental thoughts changes when their status changed.

Only few remember what life was before, and who'salways been there even in the most painful situations.

Life Is A Gift

Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can't speak.

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat.

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to god for a companion.

Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren.

Before you argue about your dirty house, someonedidn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet.

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all have to answer for them.
And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank god you're alive and still around.

Life is a gift
Live it
Enjoy it
Celebrate it

2006-10-23T06:46:00.000-07:00

i'm a happy man. hohoho.

after 10 freaking long years... I'VE FINALLY FOUND MY PRI SCH TUITION FRIEND. how cool is dat??? hahaha. actually i've tried lookin for her for a few ocassions, but to no avail. in the end i contacted another tuition mate, told her dat e other day i just tot abt lookin them up. n i asked her if she kept in contact with the other gal. i totally didnt expect it to be a positive answer. but oh well, TAADAA. they did bump into one another in school n they're on each other's friendster list. haha. so much for me puttin in the effort to look.

n so ystd we spent qt alot of time chatting online n i'm guilty to say dat i've actually forgotten alot of things dat happened in the past. oops. n we realised dat the reason why she "stopped" writing was probably cos the darn postman lost it somewhere. WTF. may dat postman burn in hell. hahaha.

n so yes... finally reunited after 10years (since p6). so i'm over the moon. lol. so drama... but yeh. its a darn cool real life story. hahaha.

2006-10-13T08:01:00.000-07:00

Provided By MetroLyrics

2006-10-11T07:09:00.000-07:00

we're more than half way thru e sem already. time to buck up & start working hard. =)

buckle up ur seatbelts... & get ready for e ride.

GENTLEMEN, START UR ENGINES.

2006-09-30T09:09:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 22ND BDAE TO MYSELF

lol. like a little bit bhb liddat. =) but hey. its my bdae, so i'm entitled to being a little arrogant. hahahaha.

aniwae thanks to all my friends hu wished me happy bdae n stuff... yes ur names shall be put up in print ltr on. lol. n special thanks to wangui for the dinner on thurs. =P yanjie, wanyie, yunxin, merbra for e super last minute midnight ktv. dat was dope fun. n for e gift from yunxin & wanyie. its pretty! =)

special thanks to:
my sis & mum, merbra, hanshuo, wanyie (idol!), yunxin, wangui, melissa, jele mei, siyu, sijie, weilun, ernest, clarice, xuebao, aiyun, chihlin boss, grace, raphael, yanting mei, mingxuan sista, sharon, huimin, yanjie, weilin, weixiong, peiyi, tsz shan, yvonne, gilbert, azrul, jacinta, joanna.

if i left ur name out lemme noe. lol.

2006-09-23T09:41:00.000-07:00

i realise dat my blog entries come in abt spans of 10days. its just e laziness to blog setting in. its like i will visit my blog, check out the tagboard... n even tho i have stuff dat i might wanna blog abt, i'll just be too lazy to do it. so dat explains the lack of updating these days.

oh btw, arsenal just won sheffield united 3-0 & liverpool trashed tottenham hotsperms... spurs i mean... 3-0 too. =)

a fren of mine just told me sth abt a forgone r/s. n hey i guess each n everyone of us has gone thru dat stage sometime or another. when u lose someone u tot u could hold onto for much longer, if not for ur life (nobody tinks liddat now i guess. lol) u feel as tho ur world crashes down on u, u suddenly lose e meaning & purpose of ur life. ya... alot of us may b shaking our heads n wondering y we did all dat. but its just human nature is it not? but more often den not, i ask myself y not keep them as frens, instead of having those hatred dat ppl haf after they break up. i mean, y make an enermy out of it, when u can make a fren instead? however in e end u may end up hurting urself just a little bit more, cos u haf to endure everything, yet work on forging that friendship. n sometimes it hurts rite? =)

as for myself. i dono where i'm going with my life right now. a little bit lost. not like super duper unmotivated. i've still got my friends (whom haven been in much contact. lol) n of cos my dudes in NUS. i still love arsenal fc. hell yeh. i still love music. but its just i dono wad r my goals, aims n ambitions.

n ya, i miss the feeling of missing someone. get wad i mean? when dat someone pops up in ur head every now n then, even when u least expect it. when u're staring into space. when u're walking down ur school's corridor. when u're watching tv in ur living room. n u wonder how he/she is doing. how he/she has been. etc etc etc. i tink u all get my point.

bdae's coming in less than a week. doesn feel like it tho. not much of a mood either. nth beats e 21st celeb.

P.S - Boss... u left a tag... W/O UR BLOG ADD. hahahahaha =P

2006-09-13T08:44:00.000-07:00

i've got plenty of stuff to update on... but kinda lethargic right now, so i shall do it @ another time.

but still i wanna do a little shout out to jele mei, who's flying off tml for her SEP... MEI. take care of urself ok? have fun but must rlly take extra care ya? will miss u. keep in touch. =)

2006-08-27T03:47:00.000-07:00

i got this from both jasmine & ahpok. *faints* so here goes.

Instructions: Once you've been tagged, you have to write six weird facts/ quirks/ habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you have to choose 5 people and list their names...

1. i love my pillows.
2. i'm 1.93m tall....... okok. 1.62
3. i'm becoming fat. =(
4. i have 8 different hairstyling products (HAHAHA)
5. i've got lots of comics, worth thousands of dollars.
6. i love dogs.

-Firsts-
Best Friend: marcus (in pri sch)
Crush: qingning. tuition mate in pri5-6. we were penpals for awhile den totally lost contact. cant even find her on friendster. somebody help. =
Movie: how to rem?? prob some jackie chan movie.
Lie: i tell too many to rem. WAHAHAHAH.

-When was the last time you-
Had a Cigarette: never. n nv will. BOTH my grandfathers died from smoking, one way or another.
Got a Ride: last wk. took raphael's car to sch.
Watched a Movie: friday. The Breakup with boss.
Used the Phone to: tell my dad i'm coming home for dinner.
Bought a CD: few weeks ago. bought Harlem Yu's new album.

-Have you ever-
Dated one of your best friends: was it considered a date? u gotta ask her den.
Been Arrested: nah. i arrest ppl.
Skinny-dipped: nope. skinny-run? YES. haha.
Been on TV: once or twice. for a few seconds each. HAHAHA.
Missed someone ya don't know: actually yes leh. as in like u'll tink abt dat pretty girl u saw on e mrt kinda thing.

4 Things you did today: went to Siglap South CC, drove, play drums, did homework.
4 sounds you can hear at this very moment: the newsreporter on tv, my mum frying something, the fan & cars on e road.

People to do this: wanyie (IDOL =)) ), jele mei, mingxuan, lirong & sharon. wahahha.

2006-08-18T08:35:00.000-07:00

DISCLAIMER: if u r a joakim fan, read no further.

n so ystd another singapore idol contestant's idol dreams came to an end. n sad to say it had to be the contestant with the best vocals. yep dat would be mathilda. how ironic dat is rite? since SI is supposed to be a singing competition. n to make matters worse, the bottom 3 had to be comprised of jon leong, hady & mathilda. guess hus in e "safe" grp? nurul, jasmine n yes... let me hear u scream dat name... JOAKIM.

its like... WTF??????

every week (n i do mean EVERY week) i scratch my head in disbelief, as to who, how and why ppl go to such extent to keep such lousy talent in the comp. hey. wait a min. i dun even tink deres any talent to talk abt. and IF u doubt me in any way, go watch any of the previous episodes of SI. u'll find that not only joakim cant sing for nuts, hes a bloody poser & hmm wad else. he basically sux.

some ppl will complain dat jasmine cant sing either. but hey. shes cute. lol. okok seriously. she may not haf e best voice in e competition, but go back n review her performances from week to week. shes improving. n i mean by leaps n bounds. check out the most recent performance. it was pretty good. shocked qt alot of ppl in fact. AS FOR JOAKIM, he still cant carry a tune even if his life depends on it.

its a sad fact. dat ppl can comment dat our local music scene is either dying or dead. but wad to do? cos its true. theres plenty of talent out there, but yet theres so many useless competitions dat will not showcase the best singapore has to offer. look at the recent superband milopeng. i noe they're good & they've got charisma. but i seriously think dat they'll b a one hit wonder. y? cos they'll only appeal to locals, who will forget them just as soon as another big-scale singing competition comes around. as for overseas, they will never make it, cos they lack exposure (so ppl carn discover their "charisma") & obviously cos their standards aint rlly up to e mark.

ok i'm not like some music guru or wad. i dun even tink i noe music dat well at all. but hey. i'm pretty confident dat i can identify wads good music yeh. n so if u ppl rlly wanna hear some good stuff, check dis out. its called Rockstar: Supernova. its an american show, where some great musicians r lookin for a singer to front their new band called supernova. i guess showing u some great clips will b a bttr way to demostrate good music.

oh. n JOAKIM STILL SUX.

2006-08-07T09:35:00.000-07:00

*keching*

time check: 1232am.

so the holidays is coming to an end. the past 3mnths seems to have just come & gone in a flash, but we all can look back n find consolation in some of the good time spent. for myself i worked for 2 good months & earned a little bit of $ to stash away in my bank... which hopefully will b used for my end-of-the-year trip. currently, its supposed to be japan rite zhiwei? hope it'll materialise... if not, just get me out to somewhere.

speaking of my savings (which is currently eroding as expected), today i went shoppin with my sis @ parkway. n i spent $170 at topman for 3tops & 1pair of jeans... n when i went to pay, the cashier actually keyed in the wrong amt. it was supposed to b $170.15 but she entered $710.15. thank goodness i saw it before i put e pen onto the receipt. phew. =P

it seems to me dat many of my frens have been caught up with unhappy things. n the even sadder thing is dat theres rlly nth much dat can be done to help dem. well, if i haf the power to help every person on earth, i rlly wouldnt b sittin in front of my laptop typing dis, will i? so to all the ppl hu have been undergoing a rough patch these days... just take care of urselves. wear white crystal accessories to keep urself safe & prevent late nights out... cos its the 7th lunar mnth rem? lol.

aniwae i'm pretty amazed by e no of hairstyling products dat i own. i'm so amazed dat i shall now provide u with the list of products dat i proudly own:

1) KMS Hair Stay Styling Gel (my fav)
2) L'OREAL invisi'gel
3) Gatsby Wax (Power Fiber Type Styling Wax)
4) Gatsby Solid (Wild & Dry Styling Wax)
5) L'OREAL Remix Non-Hardening Texturizing Styling Paste
6) Gatsby Clay (Ultra Tough Styling Clay)
7) Gatsby Soft Styling Foam
8) Gatsby Super Hard Set&Keep Spray

Yes. Go ahead & be amazed.

2006-07-27T06:59:00.000-07:00

it is bloody irritating when theres a game dat u & ur friends wanna play... u HAVE the cd... but it freaking hell DOESN WORK. can u imagine how pek cek dat is? argh.

aniwae. shall talk abt some of the weird dreams dat i had recently. hmm the first will the one dat i had ystd... i carn rlly rem the details... but i just v clearly recall dat siyu appeared in it. lol. n she was in dis pink colour top. hmmm altho i rlly doubt dat she will wear dat in real life. n cummon... shes currently in australia lorrr. hahaha.

hmm another was one dat i had last wk... it was rlly real n stuff. n it was saddening, exciting n v panicky. yeps... so its sth like dis. i was just sitting somewhere on this rlly big field/farm... when dis damn bloody big dog came chasing after me... (must b under e influence of wangui's dog)... n yes... i've actually been chased around a field by a big dog before... when i was a darn small kid summore. n e stupid dog got me... back to the story. erm... n so i was running... n den the dog changed it target n went after my wife. yep dats rite. WIFE. i dono hu she is/how she looks like. i only noe shes my wife (e stupid things dat happen in dreams). n so my wife fell from the horse n as a result, went into a coma n stuff. n of cos, as with all dramas, she was dying.

as such, i went around everywhere trying to look for a cure for her. everywhere in singapore... i even dreamt abt gg on a business trip to US & was at dis big building (where everyone looked chinese) n in e end i ended up quarreling with the secretary, who sits in the lobby of the building... n telling her how my wife was dying n how she wouldnt understand the anguish i was gg thru. n at abt dis time... i woke up... feeling damn sad n stuff.

hey. freaky dream aint it? lol...

2006-07-20T07:58:00.000-07:00

The Smile on Your Face

Why do you come to me
With that smile on your face
Saying that you've heard it all before?
So full of the joys of life
To care for thought at all
But it's you who has free rein.

Why do you torture me
With looks that could kill?
My grieving heart can't take much more.
It is ironic to think that one who has it all
Could just throw it all away.

CHORUS
We're on the rise again
And you can't stop us now.

Why do you think the future is so far away?
You're young but there are younger than you.
I never thought idealism was such a crime
Till you smashed my dreams in two.

Don't believe the patriot,
I don't believe the past,
Don't believe there's anything to be gained in compromise,
I believe in youth,
But you won't believe yourself,
It's funny you never know what you've got until it's gone.

Smash my dreams if you like
but you can't sell my soul (repeat)
Take all my possessions and it might hurt a bit
But that smile on your face will be gone.

2006-07-17T03:55:00.000-07:00

countdown to last day of work: 1.5 days

~~MON: morning - CC~~
~~TUES: afternoon - CC~~
~~WED: morning - CC~~
~~THURS: afternoon - CC~~
FRI: morning - CC, night - indoor stadium (ZPOP)
SAT: morning(half) - CC

2006-07-16T08:13:00.000-07:00

i dono y. but suddenly feel qt overcomed with sadness. sheesh. wads wrong with me?

its sth like a little feeling of loneliness. is dat the correct way to say it? but ya. its feels somewhat liddat. somehow u think n realise dat actually ppl arnd u r actually all leaving you. some leave quick... some slower... but essentially one day... u might just be left all alone? hai.

n thru these 2 days of performance... i'm rlly starting to feel a little disheartened abt percussion. its like i've reached my limits... dono if i can even improve any further. i'm slowly but surely deproving. i'm lacking the inspiration to arrange the songs dat we play. sometimes i'm at a loss of what to do during practice... n even on stage. my level of concentration n performance is degrading.

mayb its just hinting me dat i shud stop sometime soon. hmm.

when u've reached the pinnacle, things can only go downhill

2006-07-12T03:09:00.000-07:00

well i haven been blogging for a long time so here i m back again. well... nth much to talk abt actually. except mayb dat night when i worked for Coldplay's concert. woah. it was hot man. rlly cool. n their live music is rlly superb. hurhurhru envious rite. hiak. n of cos rock concerts must be accompanied by the many yandaos(spotted by the females colleagues of cos) & chiobus(spotted by yours truly & other male colleagues alike)... lol!

aniwae since dis is sth everybody's talking abt... so y shouldnt i?

wad made zidane snap? must haf gone sth like dis *disclaimer- not advisable for children below 16 lol...*:
Zidane: "ur stupid italian cock"
Materazzi: "Ya ya. the one dat screwed ur wife"
Zidane: "ur head. *grabs his own shirt* i'm french. my wife loves french."
Materazzi: "Ya rite. u're not french. u're a n****r. son of a ter**rist wh*re"
*HEADBUTT*

ok. i just made dat up from some personal nonsense n e things i read from the papers. lol. but such a shame for such a great man.

n if u may think dat materazzi is a good man.. mayb dis video will change ur mind. thanks to weisheng for e video!!

2006-06-28T07:52:00.000-07:00

lets rewind back a week. there were 2 bdaes. so happy bdae to yvonne (meinu!) & chihlin (boss!) well. 2 great women. 2 great friends. both from unlikely sources of friends. hmm y do i say dat? cos well yvonne's from GP & i still believe dat it's rlly qt a big twist of fate dat e 2 grps (TPA & GP) managed to get to noe each other. how it began from the megaconcert & till today. altho there've been times when the 2 grps are closer. like during the Arts Fest last yr. but at least the unbreakable bond has been forged.

as for chihlin... shes from hall. n i must say dat i haven made dat much frens in hall. OK. not those rlly fren frens. n yep shes rlly one of dem. even tho we didnt rlly talk much to each other during term time, but i'm glad dat shes still here, even after i've moved out for good. so i rlly appreciate dat. n how she still makes e effort to keep in contact. so boss! u're v much appreciated ok!!

so dere u go. 2 great pretty girls. 2 great friends.

i got dis from kim's blog... how true:
"Love and Friendships are like vitamins.u need them both in order to stay healthy. if u're lack of any, u'll suffer from deficiency."

n even better. i got dis from wahwei's blog. strikes a nerve doesn it?
"There comes a point when friendship starts to transcend platonicism and the key thing is whether one is able to identify that point. Is the point still a distant dot on the horizon or is it long past the point of no return?Of greater importance is the realisation that not every friendship is identical so it is pointless to base one's expectations on previous experiences and ideals. It would be of more efficiency to simply go with the flow."

Brilliant.

*~Puppy~*

~Puppy~